Understandings...

   If you are reading this I truly appreciate you.  I know a lot of what I write is on the sadder aspects of life.  But I created this blog to get these feelings out so that they don't plague me in my waking life and drive me insane. I don't want to be misunderstood here.  I am so grateful to be here and to be able to write these words.  A lot has been sacrificed for me to continue my existence and I will never forget that.  But I can't forget the suffering.  It's not a negative thing, suffering helps us learn.  We get to figure out how strong we can truly be.  Experience the miracle of breath, the miracle of feelings, the miracle of pain, the miracle of tears, 'the gift of guilt'.  I can't hide from my truth, but I learn through suffering, and pain.  It is a part of me, it's a part of all of us, but don't try to escape from it.  I don't know if any of this makes sense to the reader, but expressing this helps me.  I don't want to drag anyone down with what I write, but it makes me feel a little better when I see that people have visited BURNTHEMESSENGER.com, and maybe someone out there reading this feels like I do.  I know there's so many of you who hurt like me, worse than me, I just want you all to know I am with you.  We all are on this sinking ship together and the only way to survive is to help each other.  That's what I want to do, is help in any way I can, and so far the best way for me to accomplish anything is to continue writing, and I will do so as long as my heart beats.