For you

For you (you know who you are),

I can remember that late night we were close for a moment, in the early morning hours you held me tight.

When the light came you abandoned me without a second thought.  It just didn't feel right.

But you were never really mine, so who would I be to put up a fight?  I just walked away with your face in my mind. It was so simple for you to leave me behind.

As you left me far off in the rear view until I was out of sight, it must've been a relief, now you can play blind.  Say you were never there, and if you were not there, then I must have been nowhere.  

Because I can visualize a minute of peace, a thoughtful embrace, and if that didn't happen to me, where the fuck could I have been? 

Was I ever in that house?  Did I see you or just remain unseen?  You wouldn't need a reason not to want me, nobody does.  So you put me in my place, yell, scream that you hate me, something, just acknowledge me.  Please, you haunt my dreams.

I am aware that no one would in their right mind choose me to be with.  This will always be me.  It makes it easier to disappear.  You can always go home, back to him, and believe what you need it to be.  But when you tell them all how it was, I know, you will just leave me the fuck out of your beliefs.

I am king of absolute nothing.

Lord of the unwanted.

Redeemer of fallen hopes and broken dreams.

Alone and slowly dying.